Lets Get Some Shoes

February 4, 2011

I’m absolutely losing my shit over these shoes….

They are from BCBG and they will be mine, oh yes they WILL be mine!

Jecc xx

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It’s All Happening

January 28, 2011

  • Bloody Hell! It’s 2011, when did that happen? My head is spinning off!
  • Resolutions? Just be realistic my dears.
  • If you haven’t been to Las Vegas then go, immediately! And invite me!
  • Nothing worth having comes easily (OK, sometimes it does)
  • Remember that there is the exception and the rule. Live by the rule, but always aspire to be the exception!
  • People change. Sometimes it’s great, and sometimes it will kill you.
  • While we are on the topic of resolutions –  If you are going to try a diet, and I am sure you are lovely just the way you are! But IF you are, then I recommend the South Beach diet. It’s tough the first few days, but the change is almost instantaneous, and that is SO encouraging! And if you need support I’m right here, promise!
  • Don’t bite the hand that feeds you.
  • Dog parks – totally new experience for me, a great place for meeting cute boys/men. But beware, they are usually OBSESSED with their dogs. Ugh
  • Get rid of the pens that make your handwriting look ugly.
  • If you are a guest, don’t show up empty handed, and offer to help.
  • If you are having a shitty day, go to the nearest Anthrolpologie store and all will be well again, it’s so magic and swooney! You might find a nice new pen there.
  • Focus on the love – send it out, be open to it, make people feel loved, love yourself.
  • A watched phone will never ring, and a watched inbox will never receive mail.
  • Kiss a cute boy with a lip piercing on New Years Eve on the strip in Las Vegas. Awesome awesome awesome, yes!
  • Write thank you notes and letters, keep it alive people!
  • Keep a notebook with you at all times so you can write down any lightbulb moments throughout your day.
  • Yes Yes, I know you are terrified but please for the love of God take the plunge already! Cut your hair, change you job, take the trip, kiss the babe, say what you think (tactfully and respectfully of course!) make the call, go to the Doctor, paint your toenails, break-up.
  • You are an adult and that means you can do anything you want!

So I had been thinking about Mr. Swooney a lot. I had seen him recently and he made my stomach go all wriggly, to be honest I was surprised! I’m trying to stay free and unattached. My travel plans change rapidly and I’m all over the place, so I try to keep things simple. 

But honestly, if I meet the right guy, I could easily change my plans.  

So for the first time in my life I took a shot, leapt off the edge, went for it, took the plunge, put myself out there. And all of those bold and brave things.

I sent him a cute and witty message, it was to the point and no pressure. I basically said I thought he was a great guy and I liked hanging out with him, that I was interested and bla bla bla.

It’s been 2 weeks and I haven’t heard a thing.

Not a peep, Zip, Nien, Nada, Nothing.

Now, I do know he is painfully shy, so could this be it? Could my casual message still have freaked him out? Sent him packing never to be seen again? Is he now living in a shack in Timbuktu, hiding under the covers drinking whiskey? Who knows?! Maybe I never will.

And here is the worst part, the part ALL of you can relate to, I have INSTANTLY gone to the place of ‘he think’s I’m fat and ugly.’ My self-worth has plummeted. Instant self blame.

But I’m fighting this horrid natural inclination with everything I have. I just have to let it be, not over analyse and just trust that there is a reason why this didn’t work out (it better be a fucking good one)

I’m not going to be set back by this, I still have faith in Love/Lust/One night stands.

It was actually kinda cool putting myself out there, try it, I DARE you.

Better to know than be left wondering!

Jecc xx

His Friend: Yo, I think our boy has a thing for you

Me: (silently jumping up and down and squealing inside my brain) Really? Wow, he’s really good-looking, are you sure?

His Friend: Don’t so be ridiculous, of course he does

Me: OK, ummm, I’m really flattered, we’ll see what happens I guess!

Two hours later…..(and way too much red wine)

Him: You like to kiss a lot don’t you

Me: Yes, ummm why, is it bothering you?

Him: God no, where have you been all my life?

If I hadn’t already been lying down I would have fallen over.

To be honest I couldn’t STOP kissing him if I wanted to, he was honestly the nicest, kindest, most handsome and strapping dude I have ever had the good fortune to kiss. I could not believe my luck! There is something so very powerful about a guy who is so physically….strapping, but who is SO NICE and DECENT! It was the funnest night ever, lots of face holding, kissing, lifting me up, flirting, tickles, spooning and talking.

This guy was like the jackpot!

Ding Ding we have a winner!

I wonder if I’ll see him again…

xx

Hello my Dears,

And yes, before you scold me, I know I’ve been slack, but I haven’t quite known where to begin with what is happening in my life.

So I’m just gonna say it.

I’m moving to the USA.

!

!

!

Finally!

I’m finally doing it and I leave in exactly 10 days.

I feel great about this, I also feel completely overwhelmed, excited, swooney…amped and amazed. Yup, all of those things and MORE!

For the first time in a long time I’m going to be completely FREE, free to do whatever I like, go wherever I like and just live and be open to the possibility of whatever, WHATEVER!

I have a date with Freedom and I’m gonna nail it!

Sorry, I can’t believe I just said that, I think I got a little carried away.

Come fly with me my darlings!

xx

Bad Behavior…?

May 24, 2010

Morning lovelies!

I had an amazing weekend, want to know how it started?

I had an epic make-out session with someone a wee bit younger than me (which is not normally my style).

Bad behavior? Perhaps! Fucking fun as? You got it sister! Inappropriate/should know better? Hells yes! Do I care? NOPE!

It’s these moments that you really enjoy being single, makes you want to giggle and jump around!

He was SOOOOO good-looking. Most amazing eyes have seen in a long time, all doe eyed with impossibly long lashes and a totally cute smile. He told me he thought I was sexy, beautiful and that I looked like I was 22. That’s all VERY flattering, but he’s only 18. His opinion can’t really be fully formed yet right? But hey, nothing like a little validation!

More importantly, When did 18-year-old’s get SO confident? This guy was with about 8 of his friends, and they were all pulling one-liners on me and being very persistent…it was totally ridiculous. When I was 18, I was all about bad fringes and wearing slouch socks. I was way too scared to talk to/hit on 25 year old’s! When did the youth of today learn to hold their own? How scary! Maybe I should take a page out of their book, be a little more daring and confident and say outrageously flattering things to strangers.

Maybe I will….

You are an amazing, gorgeous and perfect person!

xx

Mr. Argentina: Can we Talk?

Me: Um, Sure!

Mr. Argentina: So, about last night, what do you think?

Me: I had a great time

Mr. Argentina: Me too, and I really like you, How do you feel about me?

Me: I really like you too, but it seems a little early to be having this conversation?

Mr. Argentina: I know it is, but I’m traveling at the moment, and I want to be honest with you because I think your really great and I  like you, BUT

Me: Ah, yes, the But….

Mr. Argentina: But….I am traveling and I’m not here for that long I don’t want you to get hurt or anything, so I think it’s best if I’m honest from the beginning.

Me: Well, I appreciate that, but I’ll be fine, thanks for your honesty, but I have my own travel plans!

Mr. Argentina: OK that’s really good, sorry, just wanted to be honest, I really don’t want you to get hurt.

Cue: EPIC MAKE-OUT #2

Knee Buckle

Swoon

Etc

Etc

So, now I’m in the conundrum that I knew was coming, the past 7 months I have been waiting waiting waiting to kiss someone, or have a connection or anything, well, now I’ve had that kiss, that connection and it’s the aftermath and I knew this was going to happen!

The fucking inevitable………

The most predictable……….

I

Can’t

Stop

Thinking

About

Him,

FUCK.

BUT (See! There’s always a But) I always get all whimsical after meeting a dude, even if it’s not serious, and it normally lasts a few days, then the magical power of Dudeness wears off and I can see clearly again….it’s just waiting for the clarity to come back that’s bothering me! EVERY time my phone goes, I think It’s him, and it NEVER is….Lordy this is frustrating!

But my sensibilities will come back soon, I think I’m just basking in the aftermath of severe dude attention overload from last week.

Wish Brandon was MY dude!

So, I’m focussing on thinking like a Dude, it’s kinda fun/hard at the same, although a dude friend told me yesterday that it’s the thinking like a female that makes us so attractive to dudes.

Great…either way I’m totally fucked.

xx

Beso!

April 25, 2010

Spanish for “Kiss”

Because one day you are just going about minding your own business then you have three EPIC Argentinian make-out sessions in a  matter of days. And maybe one goes a little further, and the dry spell is broken and you have that spring in your step. And all is right with the world again.

Cannot stop smiling, my mind is very much preoccupied with all things Latin American, especially the gorgeous men I have met in the last few weeks, my god, these men are gorgeous, affectionate, passionate and kind, That’s quadrouple Swoonage right there! They might also whisper nice things to you in Spanish in the dark, Cue: Knee Buckle.

xx

Dates (not the fruity kind)

February 25, 2010

Dating.

Daaaaaating.

DATING!

Dating is FUN, and because it’s not really customary in New Zealand it’s a HUGE deal when a dude invites you out on a  date!

But I think that ‘first date’ rules are utter bollocks, all three of the serious relationships I’ve had have come from first date sex or one-night-stand-turns-into-a-relationship-sex. How does that happen when there are shitloads of info, books etc on the subject of ‘the rules’? Here’s how, the rules suck.

I think the only valid ‘rule’ is not being too stalkery/creepy in the very beginning. If you meet someone and you feel that frisson of excitement, ya know, that feeling of ‘this might actually go somewhere’ then GO FOR IT, right now, stop watching the Hills and go for it! If you die tomorrow you will be pretty pissed you didn’t go for it!

It might turn to shit, it might be lovely, you might get to have sex! The unknown is SO exciting.

Rob? Yes Please!

On another note, I have a date on Saturday night with a very cute and adorable Czech guy, I blush every time I see him. Gotta love the FRISSON!!

Love Jecc xx

Swoon of the day: Part 2

January 26, 2010

This is Jared Leto:

Holy Smokes!

He is awarded swoon of the day for very obvious reasons. I think, besides his fantastic looks that he would also be really cool and laid back, all of the things we loves!

Ah bless him.

Love Jecc xx