So I had been thinking about Mr. Swooney a lot. I had seen him recently and he made my stomach go all wriggly, to be honest I was surprised! I’m trying to stay free and unattached. My travel plans change rapidly and I’m all over the place, so I try to keep things simple. 

But honestly, if I meet the right guy, I could easily change my plans.  

So for the first time in my life I took a shot, leapt off the edge, went for it, took the plunge, put myself out there. And all of those bold and brave things.

I sent him a cute and witty message, it was to the point and no pressure. I basically said I thought he was a great guy and I liked hanging out with him, that I was interested and bla bla bla.

It’s been 2 weeks and I haven’t heard a thing.

Not a peep, Zip, Nien, Nada, Nothing.

Now, I do know he is painfully shy, so could this be it? Could my casual message still have freaked him out? Sent him packing never to be seen again? Is he now living in a shack in Timbuktu, hiding under the covers drinking whiskey? Who knows?! Maybe I never will.

And here is the worst part, the part ALL of you can relate to, I have INSTANTLY gone to the place of ‘he think’s I’m fat and ugly.’ My self-worth has plummeted. Instant self blame.

But I’m fighting this horrid natural inclination with everything I have. I just have to let it be, not over analyse and just trust that there is a reason why this didn’t work out (it better be a fucking good one)

I’m not going to be set back by this, I still have faith in Love/Lust/One night stands.

It was actually kinda cool putting myself out there, try it, I DARE you.

Better to know than be left wondering!

Jecc xx

Dates (not the fruity kind)

February 25, 2010

Dating.

Daaaaaating.

DATING!

Dating is FUN, and because it’s not really customary in New Zealand it’s a HUGE deal when a dude invites you out on a  date!

But I think that ‘first date’ rules are utter bollocks, all three of the serious relationships I’ve had have come from first date sex or one-night-stand-turns-into-a-relationship-sex. How does that happen when there are shitloads of info, books etc on the subject of ‘the rules’? Here’s how, the rules suck.

I think the only valid ‘rule’ is not being too stalkery/creepy in the very beginning. If you meet someone and you feel that frisson of excitement, ya know, that feeling of ‘this might actually go somewhere’ then GO FOR IT, right now, stop watching the Hills and go for it! If you die tomorrow you will be pretty pissed you didn’t go for it!

It might turn to shit, it might be lovely, you might get to have sex! The unknown is SO exciting.

Rob? Yes Please!

On another note, I have a date on Saturday night with a very cute and adorable Czech guy, I blush every time I see him. Gotta love the FRISSON!!

Love Jecc xx

Don’t cook.  Don’t clean.  No man will ever make love to a woman because she waxed the linoleum – “My God, the floor’s immaculate.  Lie down, you hot bitch.” – Joan Rivers

Love Lady Jecca xx

Silly Girl

November 16, 2009

The weekend was a pretty good one, aptly demonstrated by the fact that it’s Monday and I’m having a mental health day at home, the sun is shining and I just had some excellent coffee, life is definitely bearable.

This weekend I saw 3 of the guys I have been crushing on – it was almost too much to handle, I was all nervous and excited – such a great feeling! The beginning of the weekend was loaded with expectation; Let me tell you how it ended:

Calling my Ex drunk off my ass at 2:30am on Saturday night. Great.

Colored cats

If I end up alone with Cats, this is how they are going to look.

Why did I call him you may ask? I do have a theory, here goes;

I didn’t kiss any of the crushes mentioned above, In fact there was ZERO interest from any of them even though I did my very best to look totes pretty, act cool, flutter my eyelashes etc etc. I guess it was the end of the night and I was just feeling a little lonely and rejected and wanted to speak to someone who had once had a crush on me.

I am actually OK though, I mean, I’m horrible at flirting and the guys probably have no idea that I’m interested – and I figure things always happen for a reason, so reason, if you are reading this, can you please make yourself known? I’m getting a little anxious here!

The other week I had a very pleasant morning With Jess, Chloe and Ella. The sun was shining and I wasn’t wearing a coat, it was going to be a good day.

We checked out the Designer clothing sale at San Fran Bathhouse and decided it was too hideously crowded with Hipster kids, so we bailed for a much needed coffee.

We decided to go to Duke Cavall’s. We sat outside and were served by an extremely chatty waiter; he had nice eyes and a totes cute smile. The girls gently urged me to indulge in some flirting, being the fool that I am, I did.

Here is what unfolded:

He asked for my order, I stared into his eyes for too long and blushed, talked too quickly and played with my hair too much.He came back with my Coffee and was very nice, we were chatting away as I was flicking my sugar sachet, and it flew out of my hand and slapped him in the face and fell to the ground. I could only stare at the ground – forcing him to pick up the aforementioned sugar sachet, making him think I was a complete princess and a klutz to boot. Awesome.

Had I Been wearing these Fab Chanel Heels, I would have removed one of them and shot myself.

Chanel Gun Heels

Love Lady Jecca

x

Forgive my absence…

November 3, 2009

But I have been off in another land….

trueblood-mouth2

Yum!

And I must say, it was rather pleasant, the men are gorgeous, devoted and a little bit dangerous, I love it – Louisiana never looked so damn gooood!

The only thing I’m not so fond of is the blood sucking sounds, makes my tummy flip over, but the sex scenes are well worth it, and if things keep going the way they are, this is the closest thing to actual sex I’m going to be getting for a while, sigh. But, I figure great imaginary sex is better than actual rubbish, awkward first time sex – I’m saving that for someone who is worth it.

So, I’m back and I recommend you check out True Blood, its fucking brilliant, and when you realise how good it is, you will forgive me for being gone for so long (and I will forgive you too when you disappear.)

Love Lady Jecca

x