X Marks The Spot?

February 26, 2011

Hi darlings!

Well, I’m back in LA and have been for about 2 months now. I’m looking for work and looking to establish a life here, major changes, but it’s great!

I’m on the job hunt and its positive but also getting pretty grueling. I’m all over the show, interviewing, trialling, smiling and selling myself like some awful Willy Loman type (for the record, I’m not a fan of sales people – the ghastly kind anyway)  I’m exhausted. I’ve not slept properly in 2 weeks, I just need to relax, but I stay up until 5am running through every possible scenario in my head until my brain begins to steam! I am so hard on myself it’s unbelievable. I am 100% terrified of making the wrong decision and setting my life on the wrong course, well, I swing between that and trusting the universe and letting the master plan happen organically. Do I sound completely insane to you? Don’t answer that…I know already.

And here’s the really crazy part, one particular job I’ve been trailing for is  close to perfect. Loads of travel, great perks and the financial side is great…but there are a few things that I don’t like and would have to make concessions for, quite big concessions actually, like my LIFE and free time. So now I’m questioning this option too, even though I have been begging the universe for this sort of opportunity. Believe me, I’m not afraid of hard work, and I’m not lazy, I guess I’m just making sure I’ve got every angle figured out.

Also, it’s proving difficult to meet people in LA,  I’m the type who will talk to anyone and love them immediately. I’ll offer my home, my life, my friends, my makeup, my car, whatever it is that will make that person’s life easier/make them feel loved. It just so happens this town isn’t used to that, don’t get me wrong, I’m meeting cool people…but then they are all so busy being cool and pretending to be SO important that the bullshit gets in the way of actually just getting on with the fucking job and having fun! But, in spite of this, I’ll continue to be kind, patient and send out the love, and hope that maybe, hopefully, eventually it will come back, in the form of someone who is genuine and RAD!

Anywho, I’m at a giant crossroads…and I’m feeling like I need a sign or something, and I keep hoping and doing all I can to make this choice but I’m so confused, to the point where my perspective is completely skewed.

Does anyone have any advice or ideas or stories? I could use any help!

Love Jecca xx

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You, Yes, You

February 17, 2011

I, with a deeper instinct,
choose a man who compels my strength,
who makes enormous demands on me,
who does not doubt my courage or my toughness,
who does not believe me naive or innocent,
who has the courage to treat me like a woman.
Anaïs Nin

Lets Get Some Shoes

February 4, 2011

I’m absolutely losing my shit over these shoes….

They are from BCBG and they will be mine, oh yes they WILL be mine!

Jecc xx

Are you Going To The Show?

February 2, 2011

Last night I did one of my FAVORITE things, I went to a Punk Rock show and saw one of my most favorite bands ever ever – Against Me! and if you are that way inclined then I would check them out – my favorite song by them below

There is nothing quite like the frisson and excitement at a live show, and these guys brought the frisson! They were energetic, fun, loud, great and just…fucking fantastic! I danced my ass off and screamed my lungs out singing. There is nothing quite like the experience of a great band and a great crowd, it’s my spirit, it’s where I feel happiest, it’s where I feel connected and excited! At one point the lead singer Tom Gable said something like “This is the best high, I could stay like this forever” and I couldn’t agree more. Ever notice how after a great show you can barely remember what happened and what songs they played? It’s because you are on some other level of excitement and rapture that you simply cannot recall the exact awesomeness of the show, just embrace that moment while you are lucky enough to have it!

Another great thing about concerts is the cute boy potential, now I happen to like tattoos, piercings and all that, so a punk rock show really is like my mecca for cute boys. And generally I find that these particular boys are modest and unassuming, all the things we love! It’s my personal belief that there is nothing scarier than an arrogant prick, gross and horrid!

Wow, I really digressed there…

Anyways, the point I’m making is, go to a concert! If you LOVE Kenny Rogers then bloody go! There might be heaps of dudes there with white beards who look like Santa, if that’s your vibe then go with it! Say hi, talk to strangers, ask for a lighter, ask for directions, I don’t know, ask if their beard is REAL, do something!

Oh, another brilliant thing about shows is that you often hear other bands too, I heard this band for the first time and I am 100% hooked on them, not to mention the singer has a gorgeous voice and is absolutely beautiful.

This is ‘Girls with Accents’ by Fences:

Swoon

Jecca xx