His Friend: Yo, I think our boy has a thing for you

Me: (silently jumping up and down and squealing inside my brain) Really? Wow, he’s really good-looking, are you sure?

His Friend: Don’t so be ridiculous, of course he does

Me: OK, ummm, I’m really flattered, we’ll see what happens I guess!

Two hours later…..(and way too much red wine)

Him: You like to kiss a lot don’t you

Me: Yes, ummm why, is it bothering you?

Him: God no, where have you been all my life?

If I hadn’t already been lying down I would have fallen over.

To be honest I couldn’t STOP kissing him if I wanted to, he was honestly the nicest, kindest, most handsome and strapping dude I have ever had the good fortune to kiss. I could not believe my luck! There is something so very powerful about a guy who is so physically….strapping, but who is SO NICE and DECENT! It was the funnest night ever, lots of face holding, kissing, lifting me up, flirting, tickles, spooning and talking.

This guy was like the jackpot!

Ding Ding we have a winner!

I wonder if I’ll see him again…

xx

Dudes! Yes!

August 31, 2010

I have no idea what’s happened to me, I’ve gone a bit boy mad these past few days.

I think about boys constantly, not any one boy in particular, just boys in general.

It's just too much!

To be honest I believe it was my trip to Venice Beach last week, I think it has physically changed me forever. And yes, it was that amazing. There was more boy man candy than you could fathom! It was like, dudes of every shape and size were there, cute ones, preppy ones, pierced ones, long-haired ones, jerk ones, singing ones, tattooed ones, homeless ones, dudes riding bikes, hotttt dudes, life saver dudes (whom I actually spoke to, squeal!)

Just boys and dudes and men everywhere, it was like…like the possibilities were endless! Endless acres of boy man eye candy.

Ahhhhh, Manliness.

My friend and I were talking about dudes, and our favorite body part of the dude, I personally am a back person. Oh yes, I LOVE a good back. All muscley and lovely. My friend likes the hands, particularly if they are musicians hands. We weren’t being lewd or dirty, just simply appreciating the dude-ness. Now, I know you understand what I am talking about, and I have referred to it before, it’s that wonderful, intoxicating power of dude-ness. That power that leaves you high, giddy and makes you do things you wouldn’t normally do, like giving your number to your super cute and witty waiter in the hope that he would call, when in reality you are just left giggling and blushing like a total fuckwit! And then  he doesn’t call, but that’s cool because you are so fucking high from all of the other dude-ness that’s EVERYWHERE that you barely notice you got denied!

!!

It ‘s intoxicating, dangerous and probably the coolest thing ever, it’s like magic! MAGIC! But not like that weirdo Criss Angel Mindfreak dude…ugh, no magic there at all!

I’ve got a feeling that this new sense of ease around guys has something to do with the fact that I’m traveling, I have a lovely flippant attitude, if you like me then cool, but if not, then cool too, and I don’t care because I’m moving around so much and feel so completely free that I don’t actually have time to worry about you!

Am I being understood here, or is it just me?

Don’t leave me hanging sisters!

Yours,

The completely boy-mad Jecca xx

I’m sitting in my Grandparents sunroom, watching the water, sipping coffee and letting thoughts drift in and out of my mind, letting them run and see where they end up.  I watch the ebb and flow of the water and let my mind mimic that. Sometimes this ends badly and I end up questioning everything and drive myself completely mad/end up crying, but sometimes it’s pleasant, relaxing and interesting!

I haven’t been into town for a about a week now, no internet, no car, just me, my thoughts and many many blackberries for me to pick. Often I go for a meandering walk down to the abandoned train tracks that sit out over the water. I sit and watch the fish jump and eat Blackberries I’ve picked on my way there. I sit for hours, just being still and trying to soak in as much as I can, trying to enjoy the moment that I am in, not worry about tomorrow, or next year, just enjoy what’s in front of me right now, because in the end, isn’t that really all you have?

Before I left to go on my travels I kept thinking, “I’ll be happy once I get to America, I’ll be happy once I get to France” and so on. I didn’t realise quite how unhealthy this was until I had an interesting conversation with a good friend. He had observed another friend of ours who was miserable in his life, miserable about every aspect, and just yearning for the day that he could go away on his travels. In his mind he was only going to be happy once his travels had begun. My friend put it simply and said, “how the fuck does he know that being in London is going to make him happy? Shouldn’t we all be making the best of what is right here in front of us?”

Aha!

Total lightbulb moment!

So my darlings, make the most of now, you may have future plans to look forward to, but remember to enjoy now, life is short, time is speeding up, like, really speeding up.

Perhaps we should be wearing protective goggles?

Jecca xx

Somewhere New

August 10, 2010

Hello my Darlings,

I’ve missed you!

How are you? Happy? Loving your life? Kissing someone? Tell me!

Well, I’m finally online, finally I can gather my thoughts a little and actually write something down. I will be writing more soon, but this is just a brief update/check-in!

It’s been a fantastic few weeks, the USA is treating me pretty well thus far – I’ve been staying at a lake with my family in Washington, its beautiful and amazing and I have an outside shower, it’s my favorite thing ever, I’ve always wanted one of those! I shower by Moonlight every night, how cool is that?!

I’ve been in full relax mode:

  • I have a nap everyday
  • Waterski every morning
  • Smile
  • Talk with my family
  • Cook with my Grandma
  • Smile
  • Take walks
  • Try not to be scared of the cougars that apparently live in the Forest across the road
  • Learn to drive the family boat (I can now officially pull a waterskier!)
  • Learning to drive on the other side of the road – turns out it’s not as hard as I originally thought!
  • Catching up with old dude friends, friends who surprise you by picking you up on a sailboat on your third day of vacation, introduce to totally awesome people, make you smile and look after you. These kinds of experiences are completely blowing my mind.
  • Walking home after being out at the bars and watching the sunrise over Seattle while laughing with people I just met a few hours earlier, but who I adore already.
  • Getting serious mileage and attention out of my accent
  • Kissing really gorgeous, strapping, tall, kind and lovely dudes who are so sweet and tickle your back until you fall asleep.

More to come on the last point I made there…giggle…swoon

Love Jecc xx