My darlings,

This will be my last post for a while, I’m not sure when I will next have the internet! I Hope soon though.

Don’t know where I will be or what I will be doing…oh em gee!

Ah! Can’t believe this is all happening, it’s so exciting!

Barely slept a wink last night, here are a few thoughts that passed through my head…

  • Be well
  • Have fun
  • Laugh until it hurts so much
  • Take risks
  • Jump right in
  • Hold on
  • Quit smoking – I did! It smells so bad!
  • Be open to whatever may happen
  • Kiss your Boyfriend/Girlfriend
  • Travel
  • Look in the Mirror, really look
  • Appreciate just how amazing your friends are, do you know how lucky you are to have people like that in your life?! VERY lucky!
  • Keep your passport safe, apparently identity theft is RIFE!
  • If your don’t have a passport then get one, right now! How are you supposed to come and visit me if you don’t have one?
  • Eclipse was OK, Rob is still a total baberoo!
  • Remember Me is the crappiest movie I’ve seen in ages. 9/11? Really? You just had to go there didn’t you? For fucks sake, what a BORE!
  • I’m not saying 9/11 was a bore, I’m saying the movie was! Jeeez relax!
  • Smile
  • Love yourself, you’re actually pretty damn cool/babe-ish!

Until next time…

Jecc xx

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I was having a rough couple of days:

  • I was stressing about moving away
  • Feeling depressed and overwhelmed about moving away when I should have been excited
  • I had a fight with a good friend and now he won’t return my calls
  • My little Brother (who I adore unconditionally) flaked on me and wasn’t coming home to say goodbye to me, Like any 19-year-old male he chose to stay away and party with his buddies. I was absolutely crushed. Crushed!

And then my little brother he walked through the front door last night.

And he made my day/year.

I clung to him and cried like a baby, I was so happy, overwhelmed, and shocked that my family had managed to pull a fast one on me!

Family will save your life and make it all better.

I love you so much

Jecc xx

I had my leaving party on Friday night, and for some reason I drank WAY too much, I think I’m possibly internally freaking the FUCK OUT!

But it was a fun night, all of my favorites were there, we danced and laughed and Mum made drunken snack food for all of us at 1am, Mum’s are the best!

The only glitch was a fight with one of my best dude friends (more of a disagreement actually), we have been friends since we were 15 and he’s recently engaged. He has completely fallen off the radar. Completely. Which has made me feel unloved and neglected by him. Believe me when I say, I DON”T want him for myself, I just want him to be happy, truly I do…but I question his happiness, I know I shouldn’t and I should just take it for what it’s worth and leave it be. But, me being me decided to call him out on his bullshit friend behavior (why not poke the Bees nest? Idiot!)

He thought I was unreasonable and didn’t understand ONE bit where I was coming from, like I was some stranger who had NO right to say these things to him, he was all condescending and snobby and rude, not the person I remember.  It  ended with me walking away in tears and him leaving, and giving me the shittiest most unloving hug I have ever received…like he was going to see me tomorrow, like I’m not leaving for a long time.

I’m trying so so hard to not fall to pieces over this and just accept that I cannot change other people’s behavior, only my own, but sometimes you just want to SHAKE people, you know what I mean? Shake them and go WAKE UP you fucking moron!!

I just don’t know, I’m at such a loss over this, I think I just need to let it go, people change and sometimes I think you just need to let them go. It’s very hard but I think it’s for the best.

Let it go.

Sigh.

Hello my Dears,

And yes, before you scold me, I know I’ve been slack, but I haven’t quite known where to begin with what is happening in my life.

So I’m just gonna say it.

I’m moving to the USA.

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Finally!

I’m finally doing it and I leave in exactly 10 days.

I feel great about this, I also feel completely overwhelmed, excited, swooney…amped and amazed. Yup, all of those things and MORE!

For the first time in a long time I’m going to be completely FREE, free to do whatever I like, go wherever I like and just live and be open to the possibility of whatever, WHATEVER!

I have a date with Freedom and I’m gonna nail it!

Sorry, I can’t believe I just said that, I think I got a little carried away.

Come fly with me my darlings!

xx